It finally hit me

I have been rather low this past week. I really didn't know why until today. It finally hit me that my life has severely changed. Yesterday my parents were talking to Gabby about her moving into APU, orientation, her meal plan and such. I was suddenly hit with this wave of jealousy. That isn't my life anymore. APU is no longer MY campus. It's going to be part of my past now. I am sincerely sad about this. I wish that I could go back and be in the hustle and bustle of the dorms and apartments. Today I finally but a title to my sadness "I miss my friends, I miss the theatre, I miss APU." I am never going to walk from University Village to the theatre for rehearsal. I am never going to walk down Cougar Walk and look around to see if any of my friends are hanging out there. I am glad that my time there was finished off with receiving a diploma, but I miss the memories that I was continually making. Even if I wasn't doing anything in the theatre coming back to my apartment would be a memory making process. I miss those girls. I miss the girls nights filled with episodes of "Friends" and late pancakes snacks, movie nights, and girl talks that led to sleeping on the couch and complaining about back pain in the morning. Haha...Oh, those were the days. Ugh, am I really old enough to be saying that? 'Those were the days.' Oh goodness. Anyways, the point is that I miss everything over there. It will never be the same. Such is the life of a post grad.